not that you care, but i do. i love you so much and you are a crappy dad, an addict and care only for yourself. you do nothing but bring us down and yet, my heart is broken. this family is losing everything and my worries are deep, it would be nice to have someone to share this with, but i carry the burden alone. if it wasn't for these children, i wouldn't be here. i'm sick of trying, struggling and wondering how to make it. it must be nice to be like you and have people to mooch off of all the time. you are the last person to deserve good people, but you find them. i've been talking to God all the time, but i think He doesn't care either. i am losing ground and trying to be strong for these children. i can't even cry!!! it just builds and builds.